Today I ran the fastest 5k I have done since before I started having health issues earlier in the year. It was the fastest I have run in a while. I feel like maybe I am getting back to where I want/need to be. I think my body is finally healed, going forward, I will be planning on not getting pneumonia lol, that was a total killer to my training earlier in the year. Today I felt the joy I used to feel when I raced, it made me happy. I’ve missed that feeling. I have also noticed that I am enjoying working out again. It is a happy time again, no matter how tired I am, I feel amazing after getting in a workout. People say that Exercise is the most under used anti-depressant. I think that maybe true, I have found when I am consistent with my training, I not only feel better I sleep way better, so I am more rested even on less sleep. Even if it is just getting in a walk it seems to improve my mood a ton. I can almost see that sub 40 5k in my future, I remember my first one, it took me 57:01. I have dropped a lot of time off of that already, and my next goal is the sub 40 5k and I feel like with consistent work I will get there before I know it…..Happy Training!
Ok, I realize this is only week 3 of working with my coach, but I think it was the best decision I have made for my training. I love that I have someone planning for me, and making it personal to me. I have tried generic training plans, but struggled to stick with them. I love that I just have to go into my training peaks, and there it is my whole week worth of workouts planned out for me, all I have to do is follow through. I was not sure how the whole thing would work with it all being online….how long would it take to get an answer to my questions? Then there was the nutrition question which is something I think I struggle with especially with my small baby stomach since surgery, sometimes I feel like I am eating all day long. Well maybe I just got super lucky(thank you again Terry!) to find the coach I did. If I email him, he is super responsive to my questions, and sometimes I feel dumb asking so many questions, but he answers all of them without making me feel that way. Then came the nutrition conversation, which I wasn’t expecting at all honestly, but he had me log my food for 7 days, so he could see what I was eating. After I sent him the information, he came back with what he wanted me to change. I must be doing something right since I am losing weight again, and inches 🙂 I would highly recommend exploring getting a coach if you are wanting to improve your performance. I have a feeling 2017 is going to be an amazing year for my racing. I am used to just willy nilly signing up for races, but not this year, I am clearing all races through my coach, before I sign up. Ask around, get recommendations, I wish I had sooner, but I also met Terry purely by chance, so maybe it was fate the whole time, maybe this was just the right time to focus on me, and my racing……. Happy training!
So week one didn’t go quite as planned, due to some travel issues and other things. Week two however I have completed all my workouts so far. I am a little worn out, but in a good way. I have found I am sleeping better being more consistent with my workouts, I have also given up caffeine, I found i was taking way too much in. So that may also be why I am worn out lol….but that will pass. I am pushing myself hard, and giving this training all I have got, I want so badly to improve. Mainly for myself, because I feel amazing when I workout, but also for all the people who have told me you can’t. Including that girl i used to be, the one I still see in the mirror some days, the one who tends to creep out when I am getting off track and doing things not on the path. Having weight loss surgery screws with your mind some. When I look in the mirror a lot of times I still see the person I was, the one who struggled with her weight so much, that no matter what she did couldn’t get the scale to move. I know I was blessed to have the opportunity to be able to have the surgery that changed my life for the better. I won’t stop until I reach my goals. I have stopped weighing myself mostly I still do it occasionally, but I have found when I weigh myself on a regular basis, I tend to obsess and start weighing myself everyday. So I try to focus on fitness and how my clothes fit. I have tried to explain to people how it feels, but unless you have been in shoes like mine, you can’t really understand. You can have empathy, but you don’t get what it is like. How it feels when people stare at you because of how big you are, or when you go somewhere, standing up the whole time, because you are scared of sitting in the chairs, because what if it breaks. Unless you have been in my shoes, don’t tell me you get it, because honestly you don’t. I am taking a little time to myself, I will still post here, mainly because this is my outlet, how I get things out of my brain, once I put them down here it seems like I can process them better. But I have logged out of Facebook messenger, and am spending some time focusing on finishing my semester, and my training. I just need a little mental break from the crazy……..I need to get my mind right and silence her again, put her back in her box where she should be….. happy running
Sometimes we get stuck, we think the old way of doing things is best. But I have come to realize that is not the case, we all know that if we keep doing the same things we will keep getting the same results. I have decided this year I want new results. I am going to focus on my training and self-care more. I love having Scott as a coach, he will help me do amazing things next year. I am very excited to see what happens. It is however strange for me to not be planning my own workouts. To just get an email telling me what to do….lol it is a foreign concept to me to give someone else the control, anyone who knows me will tell you that. However, I am walking the path so to speak, seeing where I end up, and excited for my journey over the next 8 months, to see the difference by my A race for next year. I am giving myself over to the process, it is not just about the training, we will also be adjusting my diet to make sure I am fueling to make it through my training in the top form. I have never been one to back away from hard work, and I have the heart to get it done. Now I will have the amazing team to help me do it. I am so excited. This is week 2, and I am already seeing the difference while it is a lot of work, I am under less pressure, I don’t have to think, just follow the plan. The next 8 months I have a feeling I will be seeing people drift out of my life, and that is ok, I plan on being very selfish and taking care of myself before anyone else, well ok that isn’t true, Lucas comes before anyone lol….. but he is my favorite guy. 2017 will be a year of change for me. I am about to the year anniversary of starting this little blog, and there have been a lot of times I have needed this place to vent and get my feelings out. Today I started a new adventure, I decided to keep a video journal, I am not sure I will ever share it with anyone, but I said that about this blog and look where I am now…lol I can’t wait to see what the year I turn 39 brings……..Happy training!
This weekend will be all about fun, yes I am racing, and I will have training, and homework, but I will also have some fun. Spending time with some great people, and probably getting into some kind of trouble….we will be descending on Nashville. Hope it is ready for the Funny Farm to arrive……….Some are racing the 5k, some the half marathon, and some the full marathon. I am so proud of Chris it will be his first full and we will be there to cheer him on! I was originally going to do the half, but on the advice of my coach I will be doing the 5k. No matter the finish time, it will be a ton of fun. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in the training and getting the PR, that we forget how much fun racing can be, especially in a new place. I am also excited to see my friend Karen who lives down there also, she is a triathlete, that I am totally impressed by, I mean seriously, she crashed her bike in a race, got back on finished the bike, and then the run, and it turned out she had a broken collar bone! What a bad ass!!! I hope you all have an amazing weekend!
As this year’s racing comes to an end, I have one race, maybe 2 small ones left. I look back at this year, at mistakes I’ve made illnesses I have dealt with and my one injury. I have to let it go, not let it color what I plan to do next year. It is time to re-group and get back to working on building my body back up and transforming it into the body I want it to be. Starting with my new coach, I am very excited to be working with him this year. Not only does he have an amazing list of credentials, but he also has experience with Bariartic patients so he understands my unique circumstances. I have already been working on my lifting programs, in my class this semester, learning how to design a program specific to my goals and needs. Learning about how to do the lifts properly, and for that I have to thank Dr. Hatten, for working with us in class to make sure we know what we need to do, to work safely while lifting. It has made a huge difference for me, my weight has stayed pretty much the same, but I have lost another 2 inches off of my waist so. I am headed in the right direction. By next race season, you will see a whole new me! It is all about the preparation. It is like the saying says, if you fail to plan, you plan to fail…..